Saturday, January 30, 2016

podcasts

Joe Rogan and Doug Stanhope chat for ages swapcast , love Sanhope and the old Manshow memoirs

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Black Klim

i love
                      a home grown tommie but the subtle smokey taste of this beauty is brilliant.

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

School hols draw to a close

I spent the morning on the train .alighted with wallet and walked to gks place. a quick brew and fresh tomatoes on toast while the kids got out of bed clothes and finished off the bubbles of rice. Long walk with the dog some attempts and training then decided to let Heidi swim in the creek. Visit to Milkbar after walking a cpl more ovals i donated $5 towards frozen treats and musk sticks. Photo may follow

Monday, January 25, 2016

Day by Day

Was sitting at local gov office waiting for my number to be called trying to guess the occupation of the ppl in the office got it in one .all were looking for for or trying to get some assistance. i wasn't so hopeful number came 15 mins late an apology didn't, soon addressed that and then we started, round and round until i was spat out with no change as such . i guess the story continues.

Art representing life.

back to the start

went for a ride did a cpl of things then found myself back where i strated.
funny that

Saturday, January 23, 2016

For Sale

firs
First place i post my baby for sale . Met by accident and fell in love , like a lot of my relationships i gave all i had but it just didnt work out. $4,000 would be to much but just.

Not sure

Is everything confirmation bias, do i see in order to maintain what i perceive to be true.i have tried to stand back and give a dispassionate view of my current relationship. When asked for truth is it only my truth , will a persuasive argument or promise of future reward colour my thinking. fuck yeah, am i aware of this ..... well i may be aware but i might be the only one.i am not sure of the end game or whether i will let others determine the outcome. cos it seems to me (confirmation bias) that the more earnest i am in my endeavours the more unlikely i get what i thought i wanted. this all makes perfect sense to me but am not sure which direction to track or lets the ongoing conditions prevail.
i will report my progress

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

blow by blow

need to update, today only.doing a line in cryptic maybe in years to come the brilliance will shine. not likely but justin case
 am off out my destination is the Impy but if history is any indicator i will be waylaid.

Love you mum

Selfie 

Identity

i am unsure of the path to take, is it fair to think that others may want a future with you or is the pressure of the ever present now enough. i have lost my rhythm not that i had any as such before, maybe its more like life has finally managed to reduce the previously life affirming spring in my step to a painful shuffle that occasionally remembers how things used to be, i feel the need to focus on my needs not wants, food has become passe lets hope i don't find other enjoyments fit in the same bucket.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Java

i love coffee, not the effect the taste . 4 minutes plunged freshly ground Italian esprersso is my friend and companion morning, noon and night.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

More coast lovers

My time down the coast was informative and oh so entertaining 3 days and 2 nights went in a flash but i achieved my goal od visiting Mum and introducing my gf and re-introducings the gks. and scope out possible future lodgings.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

gks

Spent the day with gks had a great time as we walked after tea they were moaning the weight of being 3 years of a teen a cpl of kids maybe 3 and 3 came running around the corner giggling and full of the fun of life itself and i asked the gks why they cant return to those heady days of pure fun , the oldest could still remember such fun and it and both reconnected to the child in the child once more. made my day along with a myriad of joyous moments shared

Friday, January 8, 2016

D -day

Like all others that gave gone before this is d day I will attempt to be brace of heart and share my truth regardless of what may be as it will be. I wish myself luck as I have done little preparation for d day cept everything I have done. I wish myself luck as I know luck is as nebulous as time itself . 

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Metaphor

Who would of ever imagined that changing around the stuff in my room was a metaphor for my life.i need to make sure i dont chuck out the wrong thing and value and place the right  things according to the scale of importance metaphorically of course.
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Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Elephant Man is diss appearing

Apparently no elephants are to be mentioned
I want to be the guy that rides the Elephant into the room. I surround myself with Elephant spotters. Love their work 

distractions

As the year seems almost over galloping along at a right clip i notice i have taken my eye of the ball. So much so that i barely remembered the game was on. it will hold me in good stead to remember that its a long haul but i need to make some early ground in the name of moral.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

i love a win win

Helped friends with a busy and tiring day as they prepare for a 2 year 3 kids O.S adventure.I was so impressed with their plan to do the east and UK living. For my loss of family contact i get a cpl of nice leather couches a bigger smarter tv. 'the card' and a lovely pastel green rug for the girlie. A real win win win situation,

Monday, January 4, 2016

Monday Rituals

As the NFL season draws to a close, my Monday viewing of Sunday night football is soon to concude. From a 4am kick.off to the last down mid afternoon its a soundless drama played out in the corner of my room, Excellent production values occasionally hold my gaze as i try to forecast my weekly forecast. the day holds more but i  cannot stomach starting the day with Strayan breakfast tv and the radio can be tiring and numbing.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

back to Baby steps.

As in times gone past i will post daily with the idea of chance being a fine thing i give myself the chance to flesh out thoughts and deeds with the benefit of perspective. Baby steps as the process begins. thought for the day. Happiness is a memory spun to help the now. but now i am happy with the process. i may expand on what a CUNT XMAS HAS BEEN but hope springs eternal .

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Internal Dialogue

Trust is a rare commodity to maintain throughout a lifetime. In many respects i can trust my instincts that most ppl revert to type.But i will try to remain on an even keel through these troubled waters i currently navigate. Externalise here what bounces around inside.